14.5.08

Spend Some Time

I will not be defined by the conventions established by other individuals and entities. I am me, and there is no one else who is me. There is no one else who can or will be me.

I love, I hate, I live. I love what I love, I hate what I hate, I live while I can.  

I am a passionate individual, and I am passionate about many things. I am humanistic, sardonic, and eccentric. I am also the 4th definition of sinister; there are also many more words to describe me.

I love writing, I love literature, I love music, I love film. I love history, I love Europe, I love languages, I love games. I love currants, I love cheese, I love peace, I love happiness. I love my wife.

I have a lust for life, and I want to live it. I don't want to watch it pass by, I want to feel it, I want to make it my own.

I have so much to do in this life; I cannot find myself frustrated as I often am by my definition of progression. Progression in one direction or another happens, whether it be to excellence or mediocrity. I will progress and I will become better as I progress.

I hate mediocrity more than almost anything. I will not be a mediocre being, I have so much to live for, and so much to give. My life's work has yet to begin, but it shall begin, and it shall continue until my life is taken from me.

I am going to make this life my own, and I hope to live to my greatest potential. I have so much to do with this life, and I will do it.

9.5.08

Friday

Today I can feel depression attempting to creep up on me, so I am listening to Erasure. I find that often Erasure can help me lighten the mood, although it isn't always as effective as I'd like. My blackest of humours are very hard to prevent.

I am really hoping this weekend will be fantastic, although already it is off to a rocky start. I am not sure what Jonni and I are doing tonight, although I do know she will be watching the Jazz/Lakers game, which I am not in any mood to watch. Maybe I will read or watch some other TV instead, although I watch far too much TV.

One thing that I hope is that we go somewhere good to eat; I am craving something positively scrumptious.  I don't think I really want any American fare today, a grilled cheese sandwich or burger in some form do not sound good at all. I don't want to change my mind about it, but we'll see.

Yesterday I ventured over to a new cafe in Spanish Fork called Jaxie's.  The place definitely had a fun vibe to it, and I hope they do well. I'll have to go order a beverage there sometime and take a good book to read in front of the fireplace whilst I sip away.

Today I don't think I'll write much more; I pretty much write this for self reference, I don't honestly expect anyone but me to actually read all the way through anything I write here. I hope that this chronicling some day in the future will provide me with at least some amusement (future self, it is at this point you shall chuckle knowingly). If not, this certainly won't be the first time that I've wasted my time. Whatever.